Where are you summer?

It's been wet and raining!  The only thing I wish right now is for the sun to come up again!  So I'm staring at this photo:

and the plants on my windowsill:

Let's just say that inside my head, it's summer!!!! Arrrghh.

Hope it's sunny where you are! x

Has the world gotten small?

Warning: If you are not in the mood to listen to someone whining and moaning, don't read. Mood: A little bit fed up.

Saturday: Hubby took me to Fakenham. My first time there. It wasn't grand but something new to me as we are always in Norwich and sometimes I just feel like the world has gotten so small that I only get to see Norwich, Norwich, and Norwich. Sunday: You guessed it right - Norwich. Well, we went to the tip to chuck some rubbish for recycling (yes, we're trying to be a little bit environment-friendly) then headed to Asda in, hold your breath, yes - Norwich.

Home now. Yes, home. So nice to sit on the couch, by the fire, watching Mr Bean on Holiday.

For the whole week, it's going to be Norwich again. Monday to Friday.

I want to think there's life after 5-days of Norwich. Is it Norwich driving me mad or is it just me?

...On witches and gits

Mood: Blah I have learned that we meet certain people in life to learn something. I have also learned that when we meet the most difficult people with behaviour that is totally and absolutely out of synch with ours, it means we have to learn something big and learn it the hard way. Needless to say, I have met nasty, arrogant, domineering people who scare the hell out of me. I do not know how to handle them. I worry that if I am unable to handle them or deal with them, I might just walk out or worse, I might lose my temper - which is very likely - and end up going nuts! I feel like a child scared of the monster under her bed. I feel like I am not in control. For me, they are like my teachers in grade school who brought my life so much terror that if I had my way, I wouldn't have gone to school at all. In my quest to find a solution to get rid of this senseless fear of, should we call them - people behaving like Kings and Queens of the Earth - I found a technique that is absolutely and hilariously effective! Interested to know? Okay, okay, calm down. Don't get overly excited. I will tell you. When I was a child - and even in my adulthood I suppose - I used to see these horrible people as giants. Simply put, bigger than me. I know that in the physical world, they are not. But I used to look at them as huge creatures, so much bigger than me. Therefore, also stronger and more powerful. Because of this illusion, I was always (or maybe still am?) horrified of them. They are like giant Cruela de Vils and huge Lex Luthors. Now, I have learned, that by using my imagination, I can decrease their size. Because of this discovery of my own power, I make them as small as I can make them. I make them like a dwarf (or dwarves). The voice also becomes really really small. By reading books in psychology, I have learned that these people have overwhelming insecurities they cannot handle so they want to dominate and overpower people. They show this by displaying a fiery temper, raising their voices, body language to show that they are in control, tapping the table - for example - to emphasise something to show arrogance and force and other nasty tactics to make you feel smaller than them. If in my eyes, I see them as people a lot bigger than I am, this display of power is frightening and often appalling. But if they are smaller than I am, then they can throw tantrums, cough fire or even run amuck, they can do whatever they want, it will only look comical. I have tested this and it worked! It actually worked! There was this woman at work who used to scare me to death! Now I just imagine her so much smaller and the thought of her screaming in front of me or over the telephone now no longer bothers me. She has now become, in my own Universe, so miniscule that her existence in my life is insignificant. I have just started doing the same technique with the other witches and gits around me. Try it! It works! In conclusion, if these people are in our lives to teach us something...I think that maybe...it should be to discover how to make them disappear? Hhhhmmmm....that's an idea.

So little time...

Mood: Tired.

For some reason, I was extremely tired yesterday. I didn't know why. I was supposed to write some letters for the housing association, solicitor, etc., etc. (I am my better half's Executive Secretary) but I explained to hubby that I needed to rest early. At half past 9 at night, I was asleep. Very unusual for a night person like me who can watch 3 consecutive films in one night (I should have tried getting a job in the film industry...or a film review board perhaps???) or read a book until the wee hours of the morning. Tonight, I don't feel too bad. I feel kind of lazy but alright. I have the I-want-to-just-lay-down-for-a-bit-and-do-nothing kind of feeling. Sometimes I feel there is so much to do and work seems to go on forever and ever and ever, even when I get home. Dishes. Laundry. Hoovering. Paperwork. Cooking...err, I don't do much and the microwave does a lot of help...yes, I know microwaves are not always healthy but there you go.

Well, such is life. How do I deal with it? Simple. I don't do any of them. Look at my kitchen! I have the makings of a first-rate slob! Luckily, my husband doesn't complain - nor throw pillows around the room - thank God - when things don't get done. He tries to help me but most things I prefer to do myself. Don't ask me why, maybe it's a disorder of some sort.

A friend of mine, Anne, who is one of the busiest people I know, often tells me the things that she wants to do but cannot seem to have enough time to do them. I always hear myself telling her to slow down and give herself some credit for being a good Mum and being able to juggle all three jobs at the same time (Yes, three jobs! I cannot imagine it myself!)! But now look at me, feeling almost miserable not being able to do all these things I want to do at home and things that I want to get over and done with. Even the manuscript that I have started suddenly came to a stop and I cannot seem to get the Chapter 2 done - (Friend Wen, heeellllpp!!!) ***SIGH***

Well, we can only do so much. There is time for everything. A time to work and a time to do the dishes. A time to write and a time to do the laundry. But most of all, it's time for bed!

Ho-huuummm!!! Have a restful sleep tonight, dear friends!

An Anti-Climax

I have just experienced a terrible anti-climax last night. Husband and I will not be going to the summer ball! What? You say to me. After all the time and effort...and the money that you have spent preparing for it, you are not going??? Yes, I am not. I don't know whose fault it is. My mind is not working at the moment. Husband received a text message from work asking him to report today and instead of texting back to say that he has specifically requested for a day off on Saturday, he insisted that he is going to work!!!

Yes, folks, I had to sit back and control myself last night and this morning!!!

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!

What is this about, you say. Well, this is about the last two weeks that I was so excited getting ready for a summer ball that was supposed to be tonight. I was so excited that I spent all my lunch hours at work looking for the right top, the right dress, the right make-up, the right everything! Only to be told last night, at the last minute, that we were not going.

I went berserk. I felt like a bride listening to her groom saying that there won't be any wedding! For God's sake, what a hassle! How did I handle my anger? Terrible. Really terrible. I now feel like I am such a horrible person. My better half has a very good way of making you feel even worse after he's disappointed you. Instead of making amends, he ignored me and did not talk to me. Tell you what, if this wasn't just a ball, I would have left the house with a thought of not coming back! That's just how angry I am at the moment.

So, again, whilst I am at it, Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!

The theme of the summer ball tonight was RED. I bought this red purse two weeks ago for the event.

The red shoes that I wouldn't be able to return to the shop because I just love 'em.

The make up that almost cost a fortune! Who wouldn't get absolutely mad???

So what do I do now? Sulk? No way! I'm going to Norwich to go shopping! Hmp!